Among reasons for not writing is
knowing folks have too much to read and, alas, I have too much to say. Then
there's the pesky Proverb: “Where there are many words, sin is not
absent.” Yet words give rise to more: explaining, re-visiting,
wondering, re-shaping. Such are these forays into “ministry
remnants,” drawing on normal angst – occupational hazards – of
a preacher. “Did I really say
that?!”
If we cook a bad meal – which I never
do for, mercifully, I do not cook -- the eaters know, and we might.
So with preachers. They grieve for the failings while trusting the
one who calls, knowing the eaters needs the best on offer.
Maybe remnants are good, if only for the preacher, bringing addition,
reflection, hoped-for resolution.
My remnant today is from a rumination
on the value of reading the Old Testament at a fast pace. I mentioned
how things rise to the surface and in my reading, the idea of
stubbornness had emerged. First, Pharaoh's heart hardened, or made
stubborn; second, God's painful reminder to his people about why he
cleared the promised land. “I am not doing it because you are good,
but because they have been bad,” he said to his chosen beloved (my
paraphrase). “You are a stubborn people.”
As this second fell from my mouth it
seemed I was calling my dear friends stubborn. Indeed I do not think
of them as stubborn. But here one easily errs, for the human family
has a great many things in common heritage, not least this matter of
being head-strong. So, I dare to hope my reflection on
hard-headedness gave aid to any listeners who needed to acknowledge
and repent of their own stubbornness. One prays.
But the first is more difficult, for
who can understand God's ways with people who suffered at His hand so
His cause could proceed? Yet, I heard a sound of hope: “God
hardened Pharaoh's heart so he could do great miracles.”
“Perhaps,” I had thought and so had to share, “God allows -- yea causes -- our own headstrong ways so he can work miracles in our lives as well."
Better
Bible teachers might reply,
“Nay. The lesson here is simply God using Pharaoh to further the
needs of His people. Pharaoh's doom was well-earned, and do not
forget, it was doom, not
blessing. The miracle was not for him!”
So is
the crumb worth having at all? You must decide I guess. For my part I
see the head-strong ways of my youth – some that very-nearly doomed
me – and I rejoice that God brings good from ill. I bow with joy in my heart,
believing God is both great and good. And I savor the sanity of Job:
“Even if his way with me is the end of me, yet I trust Him.” Or
to quote Randall McElwain, “Life is short; God's purposes are
long.”
Today
I kneel, daring to believe – yea
knowing – He does as He will with an end in mind that is good,
always good, for me and for you. That is
a remnant I can morsel and savor, food for the soul.
thanks
“To whom are you willing to be obligated for the sake of community? “By whom am I willing to be served for the sake of community?”
Stated another way:
Upon whom am I willing to impose?
That may, in the end, be the hardest part of these lifestyle alterations for us to embrace. Is it possible we all want to be the magnanimous benefactor, while none of us want to be the hat-in-hand pauper? Interdependence is fine as long as I’m the one helping, rather than the one receiving assistance.
Great questions.