Tuesday, April 29, 2025

A Verse for Tuesday

Ship

I am a ship, unknowing,
Seeing nil but trusting
waters deep will bear me up --
the trough will not consume.

I am a ship, unheeding;
smashing waves that shiver
timbers deep within my soul,
protected -- who can tell?

T'would break or flounder, dying;
pieces float, but vessel --
never seen again above,
the raging waves devour.

But Captain calls me upward,
Failing boat upholding;
Heedless, hapless -- never thwart
His mighty saving hand.

Saturday, April 26, 2025

Dark: A Musing Out My Window

“The gods sleep,” they say. “The earth can't see the sun where I am and thus the gods, too, are dark.” In this we equate whatever is most and greatest with what we see. God equals natural phenomena, one-and-same with it. This view is old as time, the earthy end of the gnostic see-saw, telling us the summum bonum is found always au naturale and whatever within responds to it is fully material, for there is nothing else. Sun worship, body worship, sex worship: all on a plate and offered up to all-in-all as what is seen and known as known. If the earth sleeps, so does god and nothing watches, for rocks don't see. We know this. The earth tells us.

Somewhere we conceive the opposite end, gnostics' claim that knowledge knows all, mind is everything and nothing is ever asleep, a natural response of its own assertion. Only mind can be and we know mind is greater than matter. There's something more than meat – a spirit really – that consumes all, transcending flesh and rocks and brains. The highest is not found in things or sense: they, instead, are second order, even bad. For thinking of them makes them subject and mind will win the day and tell us all things. Science worship, word worship, thought worship, information colossus-king, all offered up as highest good, the all-seeing eye all the time. The University tells us.

God – the living God -- asserts Himself, not in power nor mind, but in weakness and love, transcending both. He is uni-verse, three-in-one, the impossible pulling together of body and spirit in a Baby. And so it ever is. Our bodies make a baby and we marvel, pagan-like, at the miracle. God becomes a baby and our mind breaks, refuses to believe. God is Spirit and God in Christ takes the see-saw, holds it still, beckons us dismount and live. We worship in spirit and in truth. God is not the world and He does not view it askance. He loves the world, His own creation. And He is ever alive. We respond to Him in kind because we are His, and He never sleeps.

The night outside my window is real, as is the darkness in some broken soul, or in a forlorn prisoner or distraught child in war-torn countryside. Though I am at peace, I wonder about all things, and about all I imagine to know: such is the human lot. “God stepped out on space,” the poet said, “and made Him a man.” That is me – that is all of us. And in the dark, He is there. Because He never sleeps, I can.

“He watching over Israel slumbers not nor sleeps.”



Tuesday, April 1, 2025

Live Again

I walked and prayed and told the Lord the things He didn't know:
my plans to take the way I knew was His, my hopes that He would be near.
I knew the path I took and well my prayers affirmed --
until I stopped, and sudden knew my ears were dull.

One seldom hears when speaking out and mind made up can scarce unmake.
Without listening.

My steps ended. I sat and heard:
"Stop. Let go. Be done with your own way.
Your doing is undoing all I meant to be and do
in my good way of twists and turns and time.
You run -- or walk -- ahead and pray. Good for you.
But have you listened? 

"Listen now, heed my voice, and live again."

Friday, March 14, 2025

COLD RAIN by Jerry Walls

Sometimes on us the past
Falls hard like freezing rain,
Mingles with our tears,
and reignites our pain.
The rain falls even on
The just and the unjust,
Both promise and caution
For those who live by trust.
For he who made the rain,
Fell once beneath its blows;
By his stripes he healed
Everything that grows.
All tears must be gone,
Where his kingdom has come;
What's past no more can hold
The future for ransom.
(Matthew 5:45; Isaiah 53:5; Revelation 21:4)

Thursday, February 20, 2025

Reflecting on Order and Quiet and Knowing God

Certainly the inscrutable nature of God is real. As well as His simplicity. And it seems, maybe, the order of a monastery, at least in the ideal, is an effort to arrange our real human lives as simply and plainly and orderly as possible so the seeking of the transcendent, necessarily inscrutable nature of God does not completely ruin us.

The contrast between us and God is off the charts. Is this why we are to live quietly and go about our business, why the east has this beautiful doctrine of apophaticism -- "We know what is not true of God but positive assertions we handle with great care -- all but complete silence?"

Perhaps this is why the ordering of quietness opens the door to awareness of God. Quietness, even when occurring naturally, gives room for the (to us) impossibly infinite God to be known in some small measure. And to know God in the smallest of ways is larger than a life. Busy-ness wars against such a thing, though certainly diligence does not, for it is the same kind of ordering I am searching to understand.

Saturday, February 15, 2025

Chesterton: The Great Shipwreck as Analogy

This is one of Chesterton's masterpiece essays, published May 11, 1912 in the Illustrated London News. I'm glad he could do so well in a moment when the best reflection was necessary.

Excerpt: Some hundreds of men are, in the exact and literal sense of the proverb, between the devil and the deep sea. It is their business, if they can make up their minds to it, to accept the deep sea and resist the devil. What does Miss Pankhurst suppose a "rule" could do to them in such extremities? Does she think the captain would fine every man sixpence who expressed a preference for his life? Has it occurred to her that a hundredth part of the ship's population could have thrown the captain and all the authorities into the sea?

The tragedy of the great shipwreck is too terrific for any analogies of mere fancy. But the analogy which springs to the mind between the great modern ship and our great modern society that sent it forth--this analogy is not a fancy. It is a fact; a fact perhaps too large and plain for the eyes easily to take in. Our whole civilization is indeed very like the TITANIC; alike in its power and its impotence, it security and its insecurity. Technically considered, the sufficiency of the precautions are a matter for technical inquiry. But psychologically considered, there can be no doubt that such vast elaboration and system induce a frame of mind which is inefficient rather than efficient. Quite apart from the question of whether anyone was to blame, the big outstanding fact remains: that there was no sort of sane proportion between the provision for luxury and levity, and the extent of the provision for need and desperation. The scheme did far too much for prosperity and far too little for distress--just like the modern State. Mr. Veneering, it will be remembered, in his electoral address, "instituted a new and striking comparison between the State and a ship"; the comparison, if not new, is becoming a little too striking. By the time you have made your ship as big as a commonwealth it does become very like a ship--rather like a sinking ship.

For there is a real connection between such catastrophes and a certain frame of mind which refuses to expect them. A rough man going about the sea in a small boat may make every other kind of mistake: he may obey superstitions; he may take too much rum; he may get drunk; he may get drowned. But, cautious or reckless, drunk or sober, he cannot forget that he is in a boat and that a boat is as dangerous a beast as a wild horse. The very lines of the boat have the swift poetry of peril; the very carriage and gestures of the boat are those of a thing assailed. But if you make your boat so large that it does not even look like a boat, but like a sort of watering-place, it must, by the deepest habit of human nature, induce a less vigilant attitude of the mind. 

An aristocrat on board ship who travels with a garage for his motor almost feels as if he were travelling with the trees of his park. People living in open-air cafes sprinkled with liqueurs and ices get as far from the thought of any revolt of the elements as they are from that of an earthquake under the Hotel Cecil. The mental process is quite illogical, but it is quite inevitable. Of course, both sailors and passengers are intellectually aware that motors at sea are often less useful than life-boats, and that ices are no antidote to icebergs. But man is not only governed by what he thinks but by what he chooses to think about; and the sights that sink into us day by day colour our minds with every tint between insolence and terror. This is one of the worst evils in that extreme separation of social classes which marks the modern ship--and State.

But whether or no our unhappy fellow-creatures on the TITANIC suffered more than

Sylvia Pankhurst

they need from this unreality of original outlook, they cannot have had less instinct of actuality than we have who are left alive on land: and now that they are dead they are much more real than we. They have known what papers and politicians never know--of what man is really made, and what manner of thing is our nature at its best and worst. It is this curious, cold, flimsy incapacity to conceive what a THING is like that appears in so many places, even in the comments on this astounding sorrow. It appears in the displeasing incident of Miss Sylvia Pankhurst, who, immediately after the disaster, seems to have hastened to assure the public that men must get no credit for giving the boats up to women, because it was the "rule" at sea. Whether this was a graceful thing for a gay spinster to say to eight hundred widows in the very hour of doom is not worth inquiry here, Like cannibalism, it is a matter of taste. 

But what chiefly astonishes me in the remark is the utter absence which it reveals of the rudiments of political thought. What does Miss Pankhurst imagine a "rule" is--a sort of basilisk? Some hundreds of men are, in the exact and literal sense of the proverb, between the devil and the deep sea. It is their business, if they can make up their minds to it, to accept the deep sea and resist the devil. What does Miss Pankhurst suppose a "rule" could do to them in such extremities? Does she think the captain would fine every man sixpence who expressed a preference for his life? Has it occurred to her that a hundredth part of the ship's population could have thrown the captain and all the authorities into the sea? 

But Miss Pankhurst's remark although imbecile, is informing. Now I see the abject and idolatrous way in which she uses the word "rule," I begin to understand the abject and idolatrous way in which she uses the word "vote." She cannot see that wills and not words control events. If ever she is in a fire or shipwreck with men below a certain standard of European morals, she will soon find out that the existence of a rule depends on whether people can be induced to obey it. And if she ever has a vote in the very low state of European politics, she will very soon find out that its importance depends on whether you can induce the man you vote for to obey his mandate or any of his promises. It is vain to rule if your subjects can and do disobey you. It is vain to vote if your delegates can and do disobey you.

But, indeed, a real rule can do without such exceptions as the Suffragettes; de minimis non curat lex. And if the word "rule" be used in the wider sense of an attempt to maintain a certain standard of private conduct out of respect for public opinion, we can only say that not only is this a real moral triumph, but it is, in our present condition, rather a surprising and reassuring one. It is exactly this corporate conscience that the modern State has dangerously neglected. There was probably more instinctive fraternity and sense of identical interests, I will say, not on an old skipper's vessel, but on an old pirate's, than there was between the emigrants, the aristocrats, the journalists, or the millionaires who set out to die together on the great ship. That they found in so cruel a way their brotherhood and the need of man for the respect of his neighbour, this is a dreadful fact, but certainly the reverse of a degrading one. 

The case of Mr. Stead, which I feel with rather special emotions, both of sympathy and difference, is very typical of the whole tragedy. Mr. Stead was far too great and brave a man to require any concealment of his exaggerations or his more unbalanced moods; his strength was in a flaming certainty, which one only weakens by calling sincerity, and a hunger and thirst for human sympathy. His excess, we may say, with real respect, was in the direction of megalomania; a childlike belief in big empires, big newspapers, big alliances--big ships. He toiled like a Titan for that Anglo-American combination of which the ship that has gone down may well be called the emblem. And at the last all these big things broke about him, and somewhat bigger things remained: a courage that was entirely individual; a kindness that was entirely universal. His death may well become a legend.

G. K. Chesterton

Sunday, February 9, 2025

Why Don't We Confront?

Why don't we confront when errant ways we see?
Reasons rampant litter the path.
Who knows the motives, walked the path of erring friend?
It may not be error after all, sight being what it is.

But there's little knowing without asking.

No one wants the pained response, the indignation, the affront.
We grieve for others but leave be because it is hard to confront.

But at what cost?

We have all erred painfully in life. Why did no one speak up?
For me I know now I was headstrong, self-willed, 
preoccupied with my own way. 

No one wanted to tell me how wrong I was.

Do I have the love, especially with the young, to pray and wait
and then when it is right, sit down and listen? And then, maybe,
after listening long:

“Can you hear an alternate opinion?
I am concerned where this may lead.
I made a similar step when I was young:
here is what happened."

There is no substitute most of the time for relationship.
Most cannot hear well if they do no know you on some level.
But all are begging for clear direction. And caring.

Clear and caring is what they will thank you for.

And would-be confronters will mostly remain silent unless
they think it will be worth it.

It is the story of life. We don't listen, and those who could help,
won't. Why should they? 

Love is the only reason; love willing to bear the pain of rejection.




Help me, Lord.